When I saw that transparency was the assignment for this week’s post, I sort of drew a blank. I knew I could come up with a visual, but I like for my blog posts to relate to my current life situations. What do I say about being transparent? Then, as I thought about it, I realized that transparency is becoming more and more important to me. I feel the need to just put it out there, say what’s on my mind, and let the chips fall where they may. This kind of freedom has always been sort of elusive to me. The fear of offending, of not being liked, of going too far, has governed me for most of my life. It is only since I retired from running a business that I have fully realized that I no longer have to sell anything to anyone, and that if I do offend someone just by being who I am, then I am probably better off without them in my life.
Today I put a post on FaceBook that was a bit sarcastic about how disgusted I am with most of the people who are currently running for president. This is true. But, this is certainly not the reason I was ready to leave the USA. I was ready to leave because I honestly wanted to live in a different country just for the sake of having a new experience. At nearly 73, I feel I need a big adventure; sort of now or never. Most of the reasons I was ready to leave are very positive ones. I’ve already had a lot to say on this blog about those reasons. One person responded to this post by talking about being proud to be an American. And that phrase has lingered with me this afternoon. To be totally transparent, at this time in history, I am not proud to be an American. I am very aware that most of the rest of the world thinks of America as a spoiled, gun-toting bully. When I look at the situation in America right now and think of what it has the potential to be and what I see it becoming, no, I am not proud of that at all. I can only say that I am glad that the people in Mexico don’t seem to be judging me by Donald Trump and his posse. I see things getting crazier and crazier back in the USA. I am truly appalled that all the choices of candidates for one of the major political parties are so distasteful to me. If this is a choice, God help us. I am sickened by the fact that President Obama has received so much hateful criticism during his successful time in office. So, yes, to be honest, I personally think it is a good time not to be around for what I know is coming. The shit is already hitting the fan. Before it’s over I may have to withdraw from most media, just to stay sane. But, I will keep working on my transparency, and hope that I can somehow inspire others in some small way; not necessarily in some political way, but simply to live as authentically and transparently as possible.